Vacation

I did great! I not only stuck to my diet pretty good but I was very active and got lots of exercise. We went shopping and they had jeans on sale. My jeans are all 26 or 28 and I was proud to say that I fit a size 24! I of course bought a pair because they were only 9.99. I know that still seems big but it felt good. Also, now I can start working towards a 20. I will be thrilled if I can get into an 18 sometime. I decided not to weigh in till this Friday, but I am looking forward to it and staying on track. I am going to be very busy this week and that should help, there is no time for cheating!

Cupcakes - No I did not eat them!

I just thought I would post. I am still working hard. I wasn't very excited this weekend but I still kept my eating down. Today I went to the gym and upped my excercise by 5 minutes so I am still going good. I started on the treadmill at 2 and now I am up to 3 and 20 minutes. Then I stayed on the bike 'cause there was a good show on. Can you believe that I worked out while watching a showdown to bake cupcakes?! That is too weird. I will not be weighing in this week, I am going out of town and will not be here on Friday. But I am working out tomorrow before we go and I am going to be as active as I can. I could weigh in on Saturday but I thought it would be best to wait till next week. I am too worried about the weight loss and do not want to get discouraged. If you think I should weigh in on Saturday let me know with a comment. Anyway I keep working, I will be in the gym on Saturday and I am packing the lunches for this trip and it will be healthy!

It's Friday Again

Well, I am bummed out! I went to the gym today and weighed in. I am at 274, that is 3 pounds down from last week. I know that everybody thinks that is great but I am working like a dog and 3 pounds in just not enough. If I had 30 pounds to lose maybe those numbers would be great but I have 125 and I should be losing twice that much each week. I do not think I should be losing double digits like the biggest loser contestants but 3 pounds? That does not match the effort I am giving this. Before I get comments let me just say that I am not giving up, I can't. I do not want my kids to think that when you don't get what you want you just stop trying. I just don't feel like I am succeeding either.

Mid - Week Ramblings

It is only Tuesday but I thought I would just post today. I have been working with my trainer. We met on Monday and today and I love it. I work with her for 30 minutes and then I do cardio for 30 minutes. I really feel good about it and feel like it will make a difference. We will know for sure on Friday.

The Weigh In

Today I went to the gym and worked out. (For those of you who don't think I have time to do that) Before I worked I did my weekly weigh in and I am at 277. I am excited to be out of the eighties but that only brings my total loss at 9 pounds in 2 and 1/2 weeks. This weeks official weight loss is 4 pounds! I am just excited to be losing and now really want to see the sixties. That is probably greedy but I am just 8 pounds from 269! It had better not take 3 weeks to get there.

Puppies, Freezers, and Rain

The exercise gods are mocking me. On Monday I found the door to my deep freezer open and spent 12 hours cooking meat. On Tuesday I worked with my trainer for the first time and it was good but I only got about half the time in the pool and the heavens opened and the rain came down and the thunder struck and we ran inside. I had to run home with the kids cause we have puppies and they are not always smart enough to go inside. Today people kept calling and then a neighbor had an emergency and I took her kids. I stayed active and ate carefully and tomorrow I will be at the gym for sure, I am meeting my trainer again. I really like doing that, I feel like I am stretching myself. I am thinking that instead of water aerobics I will do cardo, I really like that too. Well, the pups survived and so will I. I really think this is a journey, one day at a time. I will make it.

Weighing In and Coming Down (to reality)

I went to the gym today. I am very discouraged. I weighed in for the week. I am at 281. That is only 5 pounds in almost 2 weeks. I have to be honest and say that I did not exercise enough. I have been going to water aerobics but not consistantly. I like it but do not feel like it pushes me enough. I do feel the burn in some muscles but not enough cardio. I like being in the gym better. I spend about 15 minutes on the treadmill, 10 minutes at a quick pace that I am comfortable with then the last 5 minutes I push a couple of levels up. Then when I am jello legged I move to the bike and just try to keep going for another 15 minutes. I know it is not much but I am trying. I know I can't give up but it is tough not to get the start I wanted. I wanted to go in and hit this hard and get a big bang on the first weigh in but it just didn't happen. I know I need to be in the gym more and find some way to work out at home too. 30 minutes just isn't enough. Maybe I can go the gym in the morning and work out at home in the evening. It is hard. We went to the zoo tonight for an event and they had dinner. It was depressing because I couldn't eat anything! I finally put some lettuce (put out for the burgers) and 2 slices of tomato on a plate and ate it dry. Everybody else was enjoying burgers and hotdogs and chips and lots of desserts. This kind of sacrifice deserved more than 5 pounds. I need to see results but I guess that I just need to suck it up and get in the gym more if that is what I want. Anyway, I will not give up, I will not give up, I WILL NOT GIVE UP!