Holidays and Temptations

I did ok! I had more than I should have but not enough to hurt. I had salmon and salad and 1 piece of corn for dinner. The bad things were that I buttered the corn (only a little) and I snuck a bite of brautwurst. I do not think I am going to diet hell for that. Also, I made it to water aerobics this morning so that helps. For breakfast I had 1 hard boiled egg and an orange and then for lunch a 100 calorie granola bar and some wheat chips. When I write all that down I am worried that it was alot of carbs but I still feel ok about it. I can't wait for the time when I will be used to this eating and it will be second nature and not so much work. I enjoyed the day and that is important. I want this to be a life style change and not a diet that I fail. Tomorrow is another day and I am looking forward to it.

4 Days - Ups, Downs- and a Bike

Well I am off to a weird start. I have been doing good on my eating but I have not had as good luck with the work out. I wasn't able to work out on Monday and then on Tuesday I did water aerobics and my trainer showed me how to do the cardo equipment in the gym. Wednesday, they came early to install the door and then Gordon's car died on Hwy 8. Well today I got a ride to the Y from a dear friend (Gordon took the van) and did water aerobics again. I am a little burned but it was worth it. Well they finished Gordon's car and I told him I would bike over to get it. (about 2 miles) He didn't think I could do it and nothing gets me fired up more than that so even though it was the hottest part of the day and in the 90s I went. I did ok, it took me about 20 minutes to do it and that was with waiting for a train! I hope I am doing enough, I really want to weigh myself now. I know that would not be good, I need to stick to the schedule but it is hard to do. I will keep working at it!!!!

Day One

I am proud! I was not able to work out today cause Joshua had a big test a MD Anderson. But it was a good start anyway. I went to the gym and met my trainer and worked out a plan. Then I followed my diet. I had a chicken breast sandwich but didn't eat the top bun for lunch. I had healthy snacks and a salad with lean ham for dinner. I am having a little popcorn for a snack before bed. I also listened to my trainer and "walked with purpose" as I was going here and there. Tomorrow is my first work out and I am nervous. I am also excited and think it will be fun. One of the things I am doing is weighing in every Friday except this one. I think it is too soon so I will do it next week. BUT, I do have my starting weight. I weighed in this morning so I could get the number. 286 Sad but the way I look at it, I have no were to go but down! I am looking forward and planning to keep moving.

Count Down

I am getting nervous. I have actually been feeling sick and I think it is just nerves. I have been heavy for so long that part of me can't see myself any other way and I don't want to fail. What if it doesn't work? I keep thinking that something is going to happen to stop this. I found out yesterday that Joshua now has a big test at MD Anderson on Monday. (that is my son with cancer, he is 10) I called my husband, Gordon, and he is taking him and then I will come and finish it so Gordon can get to work. It means that I can't do a full work out on Monday but at least I can meet with my new trainer and do something. I really want this to work out (no pun intended) I want to be different. Then I worry, you know how they say that even after people lose weight they do not see themselves differently? What if I lose it and it doesn't make a difference? Can you see why I am nervous? I guess I just have to try, that is why I told everyone what I am doing - now I can't back out, there is no where to go but forward! 2 days till D-day --- Wish me luck!!!!!!

Getting Started

I decided that this journey needed to be started right so I enrolled in a healthy eating class at our YMCA. My usual antics happened right away. After the first class I was excited to tell my friends all I had learned the next day when I was back at the Y for my kid's class. After we talked about healthy eating someone brought up what you fix at a funeral. (they said that calories don't count there) and I told them about a recipe that I have for funeral potatoes. I can't make them anymore but the ladies asked what was in them. Of course right as I am explaining how to make these gooey, high calorie, high fat potatoes the wonderful lady teaching my class walks by. I am sure she thinks I have not learned a thing! Anyway I did learn a lot and I am looking forward to the changes I am going to make starting next Monday!